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23rd Jan 2014 7yrs today dad xxxx
23 January 2014
When I was a little girl,
I can still remember our happy moments we shared together.
You was my mentor, you taught me a lot of things in life, moral values,
Respect for elders, things that is useful to our everyday life.
As a Dad, you showed me of the how, the why, and the where,
No matter what has come about; you were always there.
When I came to the hospital with you and the
doctor said that you had cancer and it's inoperable
After I heard that, my world starts to shiver.
You never spoke about it to us
11 and half weeks later, you left me.
That was so painful and the hardest thing to accept, for a grieving daughter that I am.
I was heart broken
7 years today dad and your memory will never be erased.
I once knew a man, who gave love at his best,
And no one can ever take your place. I miss you so much DAD!
1st Jan 2014
01 January 2014
Well dad it's another year, and still missing u just as much..
I think this is my year, me and the kids r all settled and happy now in Essex
It's auntie pats funeral tomorrow so it's gonna be a sad day. But nice in another cos get to see some of the family
Well dad just wanted u to know that I ain't forgotten ya
Love ya loads xxxx
31st Dec 2013
31 December 2013
Well dad another year coming to an end..
It's been nearly 7years since u were parted from us.. And not a day goes past that I don't think about u and the fun times we all had as a family.
Well another sister has joined u dad and I know that u will look after her and show her the ropes..
I can just see u all now
U, uncle Richard, auntie Shirley, uncle Arthur and now auntie pat not forgetting nan mason u all have a ball tonight
Love and miss u all xxxx
16 June 2013
Happy fathers day daddy luv and miss u so much xxxxx
Sunday 16th June 2013
16 June 2013
Just want you to know that I'm thinking of you today as I do every day.
Happy Father's Day dad
Love and miss you so much xxxxxx
18 April 2013
I luv u and miss u so very very much dad xxx
18 April 2013
Happy birthday daddy luv i and miss u with all my heart xxxxxxx
18 April 2013
Happy birthday daddy luv i and miss u with all my heart xxxxxxx
18th April 2013
18 April 2013
Hi dad, just want to tell you that I love and miss you so much.
Wish you were here so that we could celebrate your birthday together.
Happy birthday dad
Love you loads
Debbi, Simon, Roseanne, Demi, Lillie and Reggie xxxxxx
20 February 2013
I luv and miss u so so much daddy if i had one wish it would b to c u again to say goodbye properly and hug u xxxxxxx
23rd Jan 2013
23 January 2013
Well dad its that time and day again that you were taken from us.
Just want you to know that there is not a day or min that goes past that you are not in my thoughts.
Love and miss you so much.
24th Dec 2010
24 December 2010
Hiya Dad, well its christmas eve. Another xmas without my kids for some of it. Me and Tony are well and truly over now, I have found a lovely guy dad, he really does love me and will look after me, all the kids reall do like him. Tony is gonna be a dad again, got his girlfriend pregnant after only being with her a week. I get on with her, just hope he dont treat her the way he did me.
Well dad love and miss you so much
Debbs, Simon, Reggie and Girls xxxx
Merry Xmas Dad
24 December 2010
Merry Christmas dad, love and miss you loads.
Debbi, Simon, Reggie and Girls xxxxx
Sunday 20th June 2010
20 June 2010
Hiya happy fathers day... :-) thinking of u 2day and always.. Love and miss u so much xxxx
Saturday 19th June 2010
19 June 2010
Love and miss u dad
Tuesday 8th June 2010
08 June 2010
Love and miss u loads dad...
Monday 7th June 2010
07 June 2010
Hi dad feeling really low 2day... Just don't know which way 2 turn... I just need 2 get on wiv my live I know, but it is so hard not knowing which way 2 turn.. I ain't scared of being left on my own, it ain't that... I just feel like joining u sometimes.. Maybe best all round. But I feel as if no1 really cares how I feel, as he has done a good job... Well dad u know that we r all just as guilty of something... Just ain't come out yet, only time will tell... I don't want 2 be the one 2 drop the bomb... But no1's life, marriage is as perfic as they think it is... Mayb we r more like u... But if that is the case I am proud cos I love u dad and miss u more than words can say... Debbs xxxx
3rd June 2010
03 June 2010
Miss you dad so much it still hurts
Love ya wiv all my heart
Wednesday 24th Feb 2010
24 February 2010
Well dad I will be joining the 50's club this week.
And I have never felt so alone as I do right now. You dad and my kids mean the world to me. I feel like ending my life, Tony is taking everything from me.
I would gladly walk away with just my kids. And it is only my kids at the moment that keep me sane. If I was to loss them dad then I may as well can and stay with you. All I do is sit in work and cry, but if I don't get up I may never get up again. Please guide me dad and keep all my kids with me.
Love and miss you so much
18th Jan 2010
18 January 2010
Morning dad sorry it has been a while. Have had so much on my mind. Me and the kids are now renting on Park Farm, well you know don't you dad? I am sure you are looking down on me.... Carole still ain't talking, I never thought that she could be like this, still you knew her better than anyone. All I was trying to do was like after her for you, and she turned all funny. Well dad it has been 3yrs this week.
Jimmy and Sharon move Friday, Nicola has had another little boy and I have left Tony. Will I go back, all I know is that I can't put up with it anymore dad, even now he has the house a car and the van for work, but yet wants to take the car off me to sell. I need a car for work plus getting the kids to and from school.
Well dad just wanted you to know that you are always in my thoughts. Love and miss you so much.
Tuesday 24th Nov 2009
24 November 2009
Hi dad, as you most likely are looking down on me. You can see what a mess my live is at mo, dad this is so hard for me.
I am just so fed up with Tony controlling me, I can't go anywhere or do anything without him thinking I am having an affair.
He puts me down, always brings you into our arguments. Why you never done anything to him.
I love and miss you dad.
Love Debbs xxxxx
Thursday 12th Nov 2009
12 November 2009
Hi Dad, been a while I know. I feel that my life has just taken a turn, funny dad how we never know what is around the corner for us.
I honestly think that I have finally grown up, and just getting to old for all that is getting thrown at me.
Dad I know that you are looking down and watching over me, you can see. And I do feel that it is you that is guiding me through this.
Two years ago Demi done a show called 'Celtic Journey' where Stephen Gately wrote a song. And she has been asked to take part as a tribute to him, sing it on a westend stage.
And how about Elle getting invited to audition for 'Britain's got talent' on the 23rd Nov 2009. I know that you will be there and guide Elle through it.
Well dad, still miss you.
Love you loads. Debbs XXX
Thursday 22nd Oct 2009
22 October 2009
Hi Dad, sorry I ain't left you a message lately, but last week I had a bad migraine attack. And the doctor had to come out and give me two injections. And now they have put me on Tramadol. I had a MRI scan and all was ok. I don't know why I have started getting them again. It is slowly getting easier the pain from losing you dad.
By the way Jimmy and Sharon have sold and are moving in three weeks. Tina and Lenny are selling up, don't know where they are thinking of going.
Me, the house is coming together slowly, I am just getting too old to be going through all of this.
Kids are all growing up way to fast, the girls are as you well know. Need you around dad, so that you can tell me how to handle things.
Well dad love you
Tuesday 6th Oct 2009
06 October 2009
Morning Dad, Well still missing you. I have got to have an MRI on thursday, due to all the Migraines I have been getting over the last 28 yrs. Well I will get back to you and let you know how I got on.
Love you dad
Monday 21st Sept 2009
21 September 2009
Morning dad, I know it's been a while. But as you know there is not one single day that goes past that you are not in my thoughts.
Miss you so much dad, I just have not been the same since you past away.
I am trying, it is so had.
Love you dad.
Thursday 3rd Sept 2009
03 September 2009
Morning dad, well today I have got my counselling sesson, last week I cried for the whole hour.
Dad I go to bed every night in hope that you will come to me, and twice you have where I can see and talk to you, once I have only spoken to you on the phone and three times I have closed my eyes and I can see your face.
Well it is 2yrs 7mnths 11days that you passed away.
Me and Tina have a chat about you and a little cry sometimes.
Love and miss you dad loads.
Tuesday 1st Sept 2009
01 September 2009
Hi Dad, just a quickie to say that you was in me dream the other night, I did not see you but you rang me and we spoke on the phone.
I have gone back to counselling as I still feel that I need help.
Miss you so much dad.
Still Carole has not spoken to me, dont know what happened there, one minute we got on great then when she came out of hospital she went all funny, and has not spoken since.
Did you see I uploaded auntie Pat singing for you have that pleased you.
Love you so much dad.
Tuesday 11th Aug 2009
11 August 2009
Hi dad, sorry it's been so long. We all went to Magaluf for 11 nights, it was lovely weather out there in the 40's.
And since we have been back I have been so busy, but not to busy to have a faw thoughts for you a day.
I am starting counselling again dad, still I don't think that I have ever been right, have I?
Been have problems with Elle, she is just so rebellious at mo.
Well dad just off swimming.
Love and miss you so much.
Wednesday 15th July 2009
15 July 2009
Hi dad, well you will be pleased to know that me and Tina are now getting on really well. Nicola is exspecting again another boy, with her 20 year old toy boy. she is as bad as me. We are off to Magaluf soon can't wait.
Must go dad as got work to do, love and miss you loads.
Monday 13th July 2009
13 July 2009
Hi dad, well went up to Wales camping for the weekend. I hated it, cos the only reason I go to Wales is for you and Carole. Now that you have passed away, and Carole has turned funny, there is no reason for me to go again.
Well I will go every 18th April.
Missing you so much dad.
Tuesday 7th July 2009
07 July 2009
thinking of you dad, missing you well loads. Spoke to Laraine through e-mail as she is in France working on Ann's place. We are going to pop in to see her on our way back home sunday.
Friday 3rd July 2009
03 July 2009
Hi dad, me, Tony, Reggie and Girls, Jimmy, Sharon and Oscar, Jeff, Lisa, Taylor and Miles are all going camping in Wales next weekend. Well dad soon be Caroles birthday.
Love you dad
Tuesday 30th June 2009
30 June 2009
Miss you dad, funny coz I was told that the pain gets better over time. Well they were so wrong, the pain never goes.
Dad my heart broke when you passed away, and it can't be mended.
Monday 29th June 2009
29 June 2009
Missing you so much dad, there is not a day that goes by that you are not in my thoughts.
Friday 26th June 2009
26 June 2009
Missing you well loads dad
Love you so much, Debbs xxxxx
Tuesday 23rd June 2009
23 June 2009
Hi Dad, the site has changed, I don't know what has happened to all your candles that I have lite for you. Well dad it has been 2yrs 5mths today that you was taken from us.
If I could have one life time wish
One dream come true
I would pray to God with all my heart
For yesterday and you
A thousand words can't bring you back
I know because I've tried
And neither will a million tears
I know because I've cried
You left behind broken hearts
And happy memories too
But I never wanted memories
I only wanted you
To your resting place I go
Flowers are placed with care
But nobody knows the heartache I feel
As I turn and leave you there.
Love and miss you loads dad.
22 June 2009
Please accept our condolences at this difficult time.
Friday 19th June 2009
19 June 2009
Very sad day yesterday dad, we all said good bye to Denny. The weather stayed good for her.
It was sad, as cancer had also took her from us to such a young age.
Well dad it will soon be Fathers day, me I will be sending you a single rose, as I have done for the last 2years. I always send chocolates for Carole.
God knows just how much I love and miss you dad.
Wednesday 17th June 2009
17 June 2009
Well dad, not much change in the way I miss and love.
Went to see Denny yesterday, bless her dad she was only 50. And she was in so much pain, no-one should have to go through that.
Well got to do some work now, as just got back from swimming. love you so much.
Tuesday 16th June 2009
16 June 2009
Missing you loads and love you so much that it hurts.
Thursday 11th June 2009
11 June 2009
Hi dad, Denny passed away yesterday after fighting cancer for 7 half months, i was holding her hand. Bless her.
That is what I wanted to do for you dad, just to hold your hand, so that you was not alone.
Love you dad so much. Debbs xxxx
Tuesday 9th June 2009
09 June 2009
Been thinking of you a lot dad.
Really do miss you loads. Debbs xxxx
Monday 8th June 2009
08 June 2009
Hi dad, missing you loads. Uncle Ray and Auntie Dot came round yesterday, we all went out for dinner.
Text Carole last night, she said that she is still weak, but eating so thats good.
Love you dad.
Wednesday 3rd June 2009
03 June 2009
Morning dad, I spoke to Carole yesterday, and she is aloud to go home Thursday or Friday if she has someone there to look after her.
So I said that I would go up in a couple of weeks, to give Sara, Paul, Jackie and Lou a rest.
It aint looking good for Tony's aunt Denny, they now this that the Cancer has gone to her brain, she is in a lot of pain. But all they are doing is dosing her up, that is to try and make it comf for her.
Miss and love you loads. Debbs xxxx
Tuesday 2nd June 2009
02 June 2009
Hi dad, had a text from Carole last night. She is getting there slowly, still finding it hard talking for long.
I will go up if she needs me, once she is home.
Well no change love you, missing you so much dad.
Monday 1st June 2009
01 June 2009
Love and miss you so much Dad....
Thursday 28th May 2009
28 May 2009
Hi Dad, sorry I have been so busy at work. Then got a call from Sara to say that Carole was in hospital with pneumonia.
Robin called me tues morning and said Paul had rung him, mum has had a turn so we went up. Dad she looked really ill when we saw her tuesday, then wednesday morning she was looking a bit better, so we decided to come home coz Robin had to work, but went back up to see mum before we left, and she was looking relly ill again.
Sara rung me to say that she now has a chest infection and been moved onto ward 12. I have told sara that if I am needed to let me know and I will go back up, to help look after her.
Well dad it was really hard at first to go back into the same hospital that you was in, I cried, then seeing mum like that made me cry again.
I know that you are looking over her dad, and keeping her safe. We could smell you when we walked into the hospital.
I will let you know if there is any change in her.
Love and miss you loads. Debbs xxxx
Tuesday 19th May 2009
19 May 2009
Hi dad, well Elle is a teenager today, she is well happy love her. But she is still being naughty at school, I just dont know what to do with her.
She has got to stay behind for a hour after school, so that means Demi will have to wait with her, coz I aint going to make to trips.
Well dad, missing you well loads, it's nearly 2years and 4months. And the pain does not go away, I still cry most days dad.
You came to me in my dreams dad, please come back I really do need to see you.
We brought Carole a watch coz she lost the one the you got her, not sure whether it is the same but it is a nice one.
Well dad, speak soon, love you Debbs xxxx
Friday 15th May 2009
15 May 2009
Hi dad, well I am so glad that it is Friday 2day. I get a faw days rest from this place. Not sure but maybe going out 2nite with the girls, if not me and tony will take demi and elle out.
I am trying really hard to make things right, Tony dont understand (but then again I did not exspect him too) He is just so set in his own little world andmaybe does'nt know how to deal with things.
Well Carole will be coming downon the 25th May til the 29th, so that will be good to see her.
I may ask Tony if I can go away by myself for a bit, I just feel that I need to get away. Do you think that it is because I am going to be 50 nxt yr? (tony ask me that).
Love and miss you dad loads. Debbs xxxx
Tuesday 12th May 2009
12 May 2009
Morning dad, I know that I dont get time to write to you every day. It's not that I dont want too, I am so busy at work but not doing enough. When I get home I am also busy doing being a mum, cook, house keeper and wife.
I just feel that my world is falling apart dad, and I dont know what to do, the girls are doing all the things that I thought they would'nt.
I went wrong with my first family dad, and really wanted to get it right this time.
I must just be one of those people that fail at everything, and I can't help myself.
Tony wont even look at the girls let alone talk to them, I dont want them to hate us dad.
Funny coz I said to them last night, that we all do things that we know are wrong, that is how we learn about life. But I did respect you so much dad, that I never intended to hurt you in what I did as I was growing up.
And they brought tears to my eyes coz they said that is how we feel about you.
Well dad please watch over them for me and keep them safe.
Love and miss you so much. Debbs xxxx
Friday 8th May 2009
08 May 2009
Hi dad, I know that you can see me, and know what I am going through right now. Please dad help me get through this.
I just feel like I am in a black hole and dont know my way out.
Truth is dad, I have not got over you passing away, and it is so hard for me.
You never expect your love ones to pass away, I know that everyone dies one day, but dad I loved you so much.
Yeah dad I know that you are looking down on me right now, thinking to yourself (deb dont keep crying).
Well dad, I love and miss you so much. Debbs xxxx
Wednesday 6th May 2009
06 May 2009
Hi dad, sorry that it has been awhile. But my head is all over the place at mo, just don't know where I am or what I am doing anymore.
I really wish you were here, so I could talk to you. Went to the doctors, and he said that I may still be grieving you, and I have to go councilling again.
Or I am depressed, mybe going through my change. I really dont know why I feel this way, my head is spinning with loads of little things.
As you have most likely seen, Demi and Elle are now up in thier bedrooms at long last.
I am going to go swimming in a bit, just need to get back in the swing of things.
I really do miss you dad so much. Debbs xxx
Wednesday 29th Apr 2009
29 April 2009
Hi dad, sorry that it has been a long time. I am really missing you so much dad, I just dont know wot to do! I have changed so much since you passed away dad.
I really do need your advise! I just feel that I have got to that age where I just want to slow down, spend a bit of time with the kids.
Maybe it is a holiday that I need. Lillie and Reggie seem to play up more, when I feel that they are at that age where they should be behaving.
Sorry dad, you dont here from me for days then all I do is bend your ear.
I am going to the doctors to night, as my back has started to play up again.
Well dad, I love and miss you so much. Debbs xxxxx
Saturday 18th April 2009
18 April 2009
Happy birthday dad,
love from Debbs, Tony, Demi, Elle, Lillie and Reggie
Love and miss you loads. Debbs xxxx
Monday 13th April 2009
13 April 2009
Hi dad, well easter is nearly over, and back to work tomorrow.
Had to much chocolate as I alway do.
Your birthday in 5 days dad, and I will be up Wales with Carole. We will take her out for the day.
Tony has gone to work today, no rest for the hard working is here?
Well the girls should be in their bedrooms for they birthdays! (watch this space).
I have heard that before. It is really getting me down some days, I really do hate living like this.
We went out for the day yesterday with Tina, Lenny, Sam, Lee and Emma (Lee's girlfriend) and Raving and his new girlfriend. It was a nice day out.
Saturday we went to Ikea to get the girls some storage boxes for their bedrooms. We took the Audi and cos Tony said there is not enough room in the back for the four, hehas put it up for sale.
I am not happy about it, but let him. Tony said yesterday that he would buy me a 2 seater soft top a MR2 or a MX5 but we will see.
Well dad must go, now thatI have done my moaning. Love and miss you so much dad.
Friday 10th April 2009
10 April 2009
Hi dad, well it's Jeff's birthday today as you know. I am off work now until Tuesday, I think that I need the break.
Suzie has just dropped Lexie off, I have got her until 8 tonight. She is a lovely girl dad.
Lillie and Reggie want to get on the laptop, so got to go dad.
Will be thinking of you over the weekend as always.
Love and miss you loads dad. Debbs xxxx
Tuesday 7th Apr 2009
07 April 2009
Hi dad, sorry that it has been awhile. But I have been busy at work, and then at home the kids are always on the laptop.
It would of been Tony's nans birthday today, I will light a candle for her in a bit.
I am feeling a bit depressed dad, dont know whats up, do you think that it is my age? as I am getting on a bit now.
Will be going up to Wales soon, for your birthday. Missing you so much dad.
Thursday 2nd April 2009
02 April 2009
Happy Anniversary Dad. I will give Carole a call later to see how she is.
Dad I do wish that you were here, as sometimes I really do need to talk to you for avice.
I know that you are alway looking down on me, and that you would point me in the right direction, if you thought that I was going the wrong way.
Since you passed away dad, I just dont feel the same anymore.
I am going to the pictures with Tina Tuesday, it is nice that we are getting on alot better now.
Talk to you tomorrow dad. Love you loads Debbs xxxx
Tuesday 31st March 2009
31 March 2009
Morning dad, well Tina and Lenny got that place next to me, only three doors down.
Spoke to Carole yesterday. Demi auditoned for a film on C4 last Friday, she should find out this Friday if she got the part or not.
It is about a girl that wants to do ballet. Speak soon dad, got to go soz. love you loads. Debbs xxx
Monday 30th March 2009
30 March 2009
Hi dad, thought about you a lot over the weekend. I see that Tina's Becky has lite a candle for you twice.
Had Tina, Lenny, Sam, and two of Jaimes kids round for dinner yesterday. Demi and Elle went to Karly's.
Me and Tony lent Karly the money to go private rented, a house on stanhope. It alright, a garden for the boyz.
I rung Carole yesterday but no answer, will give her a call today, as she would normally ring me back.
Love and miss you loads. Debbs xxxxx
Thursday 26th March 2009
26 March 2009
Hi Dad, sorry I did not have any free time yesterday, just wanted to tell you that you are always in my thoughts.
I was at work from 5am til 5pm yesterday with only one half hour break.
I am getting a mygraine.
Tina and Lenny have sold again yeah. Love you dad. Debbs XXXXX
24 March 2009
Hi dad. Love you lots.
Tuesday 24th March 2009
24 March 2009
Hi Dad, just a quick one to let you know that I was thinking of you alot last night, I went onto Jade Goody site and left a message also.
It is always so hard to know what to say at such a sad time.
I really do fill for them two little boyz left behind.
Love and miss you loads dad. Debbs xxxxx
Monday 23rd March 2009
23 March 2009
Hi dad, sorry that it has been a while. There is not a single day that goes by were I dont miss you.
I am just so busy with work, and then sorting the house and kids out.
I sent Carole up some lovely flowers for mothers day. We will be going up to Wales soon, and if me get time we will call in to see Laraine and Brian.
Sad time for Jade Goody's family yesterday as she too was taken by Cancer. It always upsets me when ever I hear that anyone has Cancer, I always think of you dad and how much I miss you.
Tony antie Denny has got Cancer back.
Love and miss you dad.
Thursday 19th March 2009
19 March 2009
Hi dad, I know that it has been awhile, I have been so busy at work and home. Still hate work, I am really thinking of leaving.
Dad, I think to myself alot what is the point of all this! I do all I can for my kids, and they dont even care.
Viv's sister Denny has got the cancer back. I have not even had time to go swimming, and Tony moans if I go in the evening, so I walked home Tuesday from work, then back up the town with Lillie and Reggie and then walked home again with Lillie, Elle, Karly, Danny and Tommy. Demi and Reggie got the bus. And I will be walking home today.
Well dad, must get on with some work.
Love and miss you loads. Debbs xxxx
Sunday 15th Mar 2009
15 March 2009
Hi dad, went over to Jimmy's todayhis BMW is really nice. Well we was all meant to be going out next weekend, but dont look like we will be now, as Lee backed out first, then Jimmy over booked himself.
So it may only be me, Tony, Jeff and Lisa. I have got a meeting up the school in the morning, about Elle, hopefully she has learnt her lesson! but time will tell. She is not aloud back into school untill after this meeting.
Demi has a exam on the 22nd April to see if she can get into grammar. That will sort her out in she can.
Tony is upstairs plastering Demi's room, all their bathroom is now plumbed in and tiled.
Elle's bebroom is painted, and Demi's will be done soon.
So now they should be in there by may.
Well dad I think about you all the time, missing you still so much.
Love you dad, talk tomorrow. Debbs xxxx
12 March 2009
Hi dad, well yesterday was one of thosedays.
Elle got excluded from school again, dad just dont know what to do with her. We are a loving family home, give them all we can. Maybe that's it we give them too much.
I just feel that I am getting to old forall of it. I just want a relaxing time now. I hardly get to go swimming, and Tony dont want me going in the evenings. The kids never listen to me.
Sorry dad, thats all I do just lately in moan.
Just want you to know dad that I miss you so much.
Love you loads. Debbs xxxxx
10 March 2009
Hi Dad, went over Jeffs last night, they are all ok. Had a call from the school Elle had fainted and I went to collect her.
The doctor said that it may just of been a one off. But to keep an eye on her, and see him Wednesday when I take her about her behaviour.
Well my boss is walking down the road, got to go. Love you Dad. Debbs xxxxx
09 March 2009
Hi Dad, got me Audi...... I love it dad, sorry I dont talk much over the weekends, but I am always so busy doing house work.
Carole is ok, I have spoke to her over the weekend. Dad you would of liked my car.
Me and Tony have an appointment in the bank on Wednesday, coz we are hoping to buy another house and let Karly rent it. And if all goes well we may look into buying and renting.
It all started coz Lenny was talking to Tony about selling their house for ?118000, and Tony said that we would buy it, well cut alone story short, they had a better offer. Not such that they realise that they will have to pay around ?5000 in fees.
So if they sold to us, they would be up ?3000 not down. But we dont mind, if we can have the money, we will find somewhere.
Sorry dad got to go, but I will talk tomorrow. Love and miss you loads. Debbs xxxx
05 March 2009
Hi Dad, hope that god is looking after you, I felt that you was around yesterday. It make me feel safe dad when I sence you are with me.
I need to give Carole a ring tonight, I have been so busy with the girls, work and house work that I dont get alot of time to do much else.
I am thinking of giving swimming up, only coz it costs ?20 a month, and I dont manage to get there in the mornings much, and in the evenings it is just so full of kids, that you can't swim.
And swimming is the reason why I go.
So now it is getting lighter, I may start to walk to work and back home.
I am less stressed at work now, finally getting on top of it all.
Got to go dad, as got work to do. Love and miss you loads. Debbs xxxxxxx
04 March 2009
Well dad, today is the day that I have words with my boss, (lets hope I dont lose my job). I just can't take anymore from him, he acts and talks to you like you are 13 years old. And yes it needs to stop, if not I will take it to HR.
Well thats enough about work, I hope god is looking after you dad! all booked up for the 18th April your birthday, to stay in the Holiday Inn.
Someone is going into the school to see Demi today, she doesn't want me there with her. Maybe they will be able to find out why she did it!
Kids you do all you can for them, then they grow up and leave you, well mine break my heart.
Demi has a test on the 22nd April to see if she can get into Grammar. Hope she does, she needs a pick me up.
Must get on with some work now dad. But miss you loads. Debbs xxxxx
Brother Ray's birthday
02 March 2009
Hi Dad, went to see Uncle Ray yesterday, took him a card for his birthday today.
Also took him one of your Frankie Laine LP's that he wanted, and the painting of Frankie Laine that he done for you.
Well I was getting all worried about uncle Ray, but he says that he feels ok a lot of the time, he is having trouble with his heart.
Him and Auntie Dot are both looking well. Got out all the old picture, I do love looking at pictures. There was some nice ones of you dad in 1961 in someones back garden.
God dad I miss you so much, talk again tomorrow.
28 February 2009
Hi dad, well that day has come and I am now 49, I have had a lovely day today.
I went to London with my four Princesses (Karly, Demi, Elle and Lillie).
Called into my mates and went to see uncle mick, took your Frankie Laine records up to him.
I am going to see uncle Ray tomorrow.
Well back to me, I got for my b-day a car (Aiudi A4 TDI sports) very nice! a bottle ofperfume, from Tony and kids. Two tops from Karly, John and boys, some Dove stuff from Lou Lou, ?20 and Chocolates from Vivi and Clive, and bottle of wine and bar of chocolate from Lucy and tribe and a few other bits.
Big me up daddy with the Audi!!!!!!!! so from next week I will be driving in my Audi with my jim jim and K60 JFM number plate and Frankie Laine playing.
Well dad just want you to know that there is not a single day that I do not think about you.......
Love you always Debbs xxxxxxxx
26 February 2009
Hello dad, just wanted to say hi.
Miss you loads. Debbs xxxxx
25 February 2009
How many words is it going to take for me to let you know how much you are missed by me nd the whole family, so im going to put it into just a few word's.
I LOVE YOU........?
24 February 2009
Hi Dad, been thinking of you a lot lately. I think it is b-coz I am hearing that so many people are dieing of Cancer, I just think of you and that upsets me.
Did you enjoy reading the messages from Lillie and Elle? Lillie came down stairs to me the other night and showed me a note that she had writen for you on her school laptop.
Well still waiting for an appointment for Demi, they are so slow. Tony rung me last night, I am meeting him Sunday at uncle Ray's. And Micky rung me while I was a swimming, (I walked there and back) I am popping into uncle Mick on Saturday.
I rung Carole Saturday, she is ok, Me, Tony and the Kids are going up for your birthday as I have done for the last 2yrs. I think that Jeff, Lisa anfd kids are coming too.
Dad I must go, and get on with some work. I love and miss you so much Dad. Debbs xxxx
23 February 2009
Hi Dad, I was a bit upset on Saturday. I rung uncle Ray to say that I will try and pop in and see him this weekend or next, to drop off that Frankie Laine record of yours that he wanted, and the painting he done for you, and he told me that he has not been well.
As it is his birthday on Monday I will try and get up to see him on Sunday, maybe take him out for Sunday Lunch.
Can't stop crying once again, sorry dad you are most likely looking down at me now and saying to yourself, don't keep crying Deb. But I can't help it, since you have been gone, that is all I do.
Really do miss you dad, more that words can say.
Lillie wants to get back on the pc, so talk tomorrow.
Love you dad. Debbs xxxxx
22 February 2009
Hi grandad it's elle here, i love you so much, i am missing you well we all are you mean the world to me, top man you was, you new the right things to say at the right time, when we used to go and see you they would always be the best days i have ever had, and just to let you know i havnt forgottenthe 1 most important day of my life when you said to me remember this day for the rest of your life, well i always will. I know your looking down on me and thinking what am i doing with my life, since you have been gone i have made some bad choices and my life has been messed up but it's growing back now just how it used to be, when i look up in the sky i think of you and know your there, love you always. Elle x
22 February 2009
how are you doing up in heaven, is god looking after you me and mum are sad that you ant here uncle ray is ill, mum is going to see him on his birthday, i wish you was still here, me and mum are crying are eyes out mum makes my sad sometimes by talking about you she crys her selfi love you lots and lots i will never forget you your my best granddad, in the whole inter world love you lots and lots lillie xxxxx
19 February 2009
Hi dad, sorry I was really busy yesterday at work, I feel like leaving it is getting me down that much. I am finding it hard to get up in the mornings as well.
Tony has started to get a few more jobs coming in, he has given John (Karly's other half) a days work today. He is alright, he must be he has sorted Karly out. Brave man, as Tony would say.
I have only seen Kenny once in nearly a year, kid who would have them. Coz all they do is keep you pennyless them break your heart.
Sorry dad if ever I was a pain for you, as I did not know at the time just how much it hurts.
Love you Dad, Debbs xxxxx
Feeling better today
17 February 2009
Hi dad, well I am feeling a bit better today.
I have almost done all that I need to do at work, that has made me happy, coz I was falling behind.
Demi has gone to a Hip Hop thing at FTD, and Elle is going under 17's tonight and staying at her friends, Reg is staying out also.
Tony told me the other day that David has rit his Jag off. How gutted he must feel ?9000 car.
And he only had it coz Lenny got it for him.
Well dad I am 49 in 12 days.Tina and Lenny are going on holiday soon, and I said to Tony that it would be nice for us to go aswell. Without the kids, but Tony wont.
Got to go dad, as I have too pick Demi up.
Love and miss you so much. Debbs xxx
16 February 2009
Hi dad, well I was so busy at work today. Did not get chance to talk to you.
Just wanted too let you know that Elle did not get through, to 'The sound of music' I think coz she was too tall. As limits was 4ft 9 and Elle is 5ft 1in.
But you have to be in it too win it, so Carole said.
Dad still having problems with Demi, think that some of it is teenager, but not all off it.
Talk tomorrow dad. Love and miss you so much Debbs xxxx
14 February 2009
Hi dad, sorry I did not talk yesterday. I was so busy at work.
I have got so much going round in my head at mo, I can't concentrate on work, I am having to teach myself something I know nothing about.
I really do hate work at mo. I still get upset about Demi, dad it does'nt matter how much you love your kids and what it is that you do for them. Coz as soon as they can they go off and leave you.
I just love all my kids so much dad, and I never wanted to be the way that mum was with us, with my kids.
I give them all that I can, but feel that it is not enough.
Not one of them do anything for me, without me shouting at them first.
Well dad if you was here I would be on the phone every night.
Asking how to deal with this all. And I know that you would know just what to say, to make me feel that I was not a failier mumcoz that is how I am feeling at mo.
Dad I miss you so much. Debbs xxxxx
Hi ya dad
12 February 2009
Hi ya dad, I know that you did not believe in all that stuff, but I have talked to you in my dreams and would love to again pleaseit made me so happy.
I go to bed every night, in hope that you will come. Sometimes I know you are there as I can smell you, but not see you dad.
It has been over two years now dad, please come and talk with me?
And I know that if you were looking down on us, you would not be happy with what you can see..
I love you so much dad. Debbs xxxx
11 February 2009
Hi ya dad, what a pain it was yesterday at work, I really did mess up. Ended up stay till 5:30pm from 5am.
Dad I am really getting behind with my work, I am really finding it hard to motivate myself..
I am going to see how much it will cost for me and Demi to go up and stay with Carole for a weekend by train.
Well dad I dont want to go, but I am going swimming in a bit, so really need to do some work.
Love and miss you so much. Debbs xxxxx
10 February 2009
Hi dad, the weather is bad today, it is raining.
I went swimming last night with my friend Jane, I also took Demi, Elle and Lillie with me.
Dad, I hope that you do read these letters that I write to you. Still I would carry on writing them, as it makes me feel better .
I want you to know dad that I really miss you
All the kids are on a weeks holiday from school next week, don't know what I am going to do with them. As I don't want to leave Demi, maybe Tony will spend a bit of time with them. If not I will take the week off.
Well dad love and miss you loads. Debbs xxxx
09 February 2009
Hi dad, Demi does not feel that she is learning enough at Tower, as she is in set 1 for all other subjects apart from Maths and science she is in set 2.
So I am going to ring up the grammar school and try and get her in there.She wants to study law.
But still wants to be a dancer, god dad she really does set her self some high goals!
I see Brian up town on Sat, he said that he misses you. As we all do.Well it will soon be my birthday (49). I really wish that you was still alive dad.I really do miss you so much, there is not a day that goes by that you are not in my throughts.
Love you dad. Debbs xxxx
Did'nt get through
08 February 2009
Hi dad, Demi did'nt get through. But she is ok with it, long day. As three went up but only one of them got through, so now they have to wait around.
Tony is laying the tiles in the girls bathroom, they should be up there in a couple of weeks. The sun is shinning today but dont know whether or not it is cold out.
I am going down my gym at 5 with a friend, then we are going swimming.
Talk again tomorrow dad. Love you Debbs xxx
07 February 2009
Hi dad, this has been a very sad week for us. I am still trying to get my head round it all.
How do I handle this?
I have lit a candle today, but for Demidad please look over her for me, and keep her safe.
I only hope that we can get to the bottom of it.
She is staying with her friends from dance tonight, as she is off to London for an audition in the morning.
Hopefully she will get through..
Got to go dad, as I have got Lexie tonight and she is getting ratty.
Love you. Debbs xxxx
05 February 2009
Well dad this has been an emotional few days for us all, but you know that already don't you?
What do you do in a situation like that?
When we got her to the hospital, she said granddad's here, coz I can smell him.
Dad I just feel so helpless, none of us done anything like this (did we?) Dad I just feel why me!
Demi is such a bright kid, I stayed with her Tuesday night, and she wanted Karly to stay with her last night. I have texted her this morning, but she has not replied, so she must be asleep.
And there is no waking Karly
Hopefully she has not done any long term damage to her liver, coz her dancing days will be over. God dad what would I have done if I had lost her?we was all crying up the hospital last night.
Carole said that she can go up and stay with her for a couple of days, if she wants too.
I thought that me, Demi and Elle were so close, how did I not see this coming?
Have I failed as a mum again?
Boy this parent lark is hard dad. You should of told me!I will let you know once I have been up the hospital how she is.
Love and miss you Dad. Debbs xxxx
03 February 2009
Hi dad, just been to folkstone to get the girls taps for their bath. As Tony got the basin ones from B & Q in Ashford, but they did not have the bath one's. And they were half price.
Lillie, Reggie and Demi did not go to school today, Linden Grove was closed due to the weather. Still Reggie is poorly, he has got a bad cold.
There is still snow on the ground, but not been snowing today. Carole texted me last night too let me know that it was snowing hard in Wales.
Reggie is going on to me, as he wants to go on the laptop. As I will go dad, and talk tomorrow.
Love and miss you loads Debbs xxxxxx
02 February 2009
Morning dad, well the weather here is cold and snowing, just waiting to see if the schools are closed.
Spoke to Carole yesterday, she was baking a 'Lemon drizzle cake', don't know howit turned out as she did'nt ring me.
Tony has painted Elle's room now, it looks really nice.When it is finished, nodoubt you will have a good look around. The girls are getting really excited as they will soon be up there.
Got to go dad, as I am at work. Missing you. Debbs xxx
01 February 2009
Morning Dad X
30 January 2009
I went swimming again last night with Jane, Elle and Elles mate. While I was waiting for Demi to finish dance.
We are all meeting up with Lee on the 21st March, be nice if you were there with me. (I will let you know what pub).
You know something dad, this does not get any easier with time, so who ever said that it does was lying. Coz I miss you so much and I could cry so many tears that they would fill the occean.
If anybody reads these, they will think that I am a crank, and they will be right. But when you lose someone that you love it is so hard to get your head around it.
I think that I have changed since you passed away dad, I am so emotional now and life is to short to be worrying.
I have got Lexie tonight, Suzie is going away for the weekend. She is lovely dad, you know that she was a girl did'nt you? and I was told that you was there at the birth.
Love and miss you dad. Debbs xxxxxxx
Hi ya dad
29 January 2009
Good morning dad, I am feeling better today. Went down the gym again yesterday with Jane.
I am going swimming this morning and then again tonight, So I should be a size 6 very soon. LOL!
Phoned Carole last night, she is ok, I will try and get up to see her soon (Tony said April, coz that is when we would go up for your birthday) but I would like to go up before then.
I am keeping in touch with as many members of the family as I can, I have arranged a night out with Lee (Mickey's boy) and Lisa texted me back last night.
So maybe we can all meet up on the same night. Jimmy said to me if it was not for me, then we most likely would not bother.But life is to short, and we should stay in touch.
Well dad I am going swimming in a mo, so miss you loads. Debbs xxxx
28 January 2009
Morning dad, I was going to go swimming but it is to late now, so I will have to move my car (see I have your number plate now).
I am feeling a lot better today.
I am trying to upload a picture of you with Frankie Laine, I bet you are loving it, singing away every day with Frankie.
Have you heard Elle sing 'If spring never comes'?
I went swimming again last night, with a friend and took Elle as Demi was at dance.
I will ring Carole to night, make sure she is ok. We are going to try and get up to see her soon. Me and Tony will look after her for you dad.
Well dad I need to move my car, and do some work. Love and miss you so much. Debbs xxxxx
27 January 2009
Dad, i am feeling so down, I miss you so much. I thought that it would get easier with time, but I am not so sure.
I wish you were here for me to talk too, I am having bad days at work, dont really want to be there. The house is getting me down. Tony is doing he's best to get it all done.
Maybe we just need to get away, but the house is taking up so much of our money. Hopefully the girls will be in their bedrooms.
Got to go dad, as I am trying to work as well as write to you. I love and miss you lots Debbs xxxx
26 January 2009
Hi dad, I'm feeling a bit down today. getting fed up with work, but there is nothing out there that will fit in with the kids. I dont like my boss, he just seems to give everything to me that no-one else wants to do. Maybe it is he's way of getting rid of me.
Rave and Jimmy have got a new car. Raves is really nice, have not seen Jimmy's yet, but Rave said that it is a White BMW.
Well dad finally went down the gym yesterday (Sunday) lets see if I can keep it up.
I have got Lexie today (Barry's youngest) she will be 2 in March. She does make me laugh, she lifts up my phone and see's the picture of you, and says zag-dag Jim.
Demi is cooking dinner tonight bless her little heart. She is a good cook, she gets that from the Mason side.
Tony went back to work today, thank god. He is such a worrier.
I have got to go now dad, but I will see you tomorrow. Love and miss you lots. Debbi xxxx
Hi again dad
26 January 2009
You know something dad, I am writing to you in hope that you do read them. I have now added Carole too Elles friends and family so that we can ring each other for free. Coz when I changed my contract I had more txt's. I know dad towards the end if I was not txting you I was on the phone, but dad I miss you so much. I only wish that I had more time with you.. Last week was one hell of a week for me, I was just so emotional. Dad I have got to go, as I am in work. you are always on my mind and in my heart.
Miss you dad. Debbi xxxxx
24 January 2009
Only me dad, we all ended up going for a drink last night. Then me, Rave, Jimmy and Sharon went for a curry. I have spoke to Carole this morning, Robin is still up there with her. Tony has'nt had much work since xmas. He was thinking of going out to Dubai to work, but he starts work for a friend of mine on Monday. I think that everyone is feeling the pinch lately. Talk again tomorrow dad.
Love you Debbi xxxxx
23 January 2009
Hi Dad, only me! well dad it is the 23rd today, and Robin is on his way up to Wales. We are all meeting up for a drink in town if you want join us? This has been a hard week for me dad, just as I thought all was going well, I just get so emotional. Dad when I came to stay with you just before xmas, I did'nt want to leave you. If I had known that you only had a short time left, I would never have come home. I really did want to be with you, and it was hard for me to get my head around. I love you dad so much, my heart is like a jig-saw puzzle, with a piece missing.
Love and miss you. Debbi xxxx
22 January 2009
Hi Dad, this has been a hard long week for me. I have been very tearfull, I miss you so much dadRemember when I would ring you up for advise when ever I was having problems with the kids, and ask if any of us was like that? you would always make me feel better. I rung Carole on Tuesday night she is ok, me, Tony and the kids try to get up to see her as much as we can. Don't worry dad we will look after her for you. I keep telling her that she will have to come and live with me soon. Tony will turn the gym into a bungalow for her. Tony has nearly finished all the plastering in the loft. Elle sings you song sometimes which makes us all sad. Well dad I am going swimming now talk to you again tomorrow.
Love and miss you so much Debbi xxxxx
Miss you Dad
20 January 2009
Dad it seems like only yesterday,
Angels came and took you away,
In fact it's been two long years,
Memories of you still bring tears,
You are on our minds and in our hearts,
Even though we had to part.
Love you Debbi, Tony, Reggie and Girls XXXXXXX
20 January 2009
Hi Dad, This day has come round again so quick 2yrs today to the day. And the pain that I feel is like a knife in my heart.
Dad, I know that you are with me, as I can smell you are there beside me. I somethimes see you when I close my eyes.
Carole is ok, I will ring her today. Robin is going up to take her out on Friday. Me & Tony will try to get up soon to see her.
Tony has been getting on with the loft, the girls should be up there soon.
your 7 are meeting up for a drink on Friday, in the County be nice if you could be there too.
Really do miss you Dad more than words can say. Debbi XXX
Missing you Dad
19 January 2009
Dad it has been 2 years since you was taken from us
There's a heap of satisfaction
to sit here thinking of you Dad
And to tell you once again Dad,
how very much I love you.
There is comfort just in longing
for a smile from your face
And joy in just remembering
your very special place.
There is happiness in knowing
that my heart will always be
A place where you will rest
and will always be near to me.
All my love to you Dad in Heaven
19 January 2009
Well dad 2 years have passed, and I miss you so much. I thought that the pain would get easier with time, but I was wrong.
Dad did you see Demi and Elle in Show White panto at 'The Marlowe Theatre'? I am so proud of them & I know you would be too. Elle's singing is coming along, she has a lovely voice. She gets it from the Mason side.
Well dad I want you to know that a day doesn't go by were I dont think about you.
Love you Dad. Debbi XXXX
16 January 2009
Dad, I never stop thinking of you. I talk to your picture on my pc at work when I am feeling sad. Well it has been 2yrs this coming Tuesday, and the pain does'nt get any easier. Hope you liked your Christmas card. Love you Debbi, Tony, Demi, Elle, Lillie and Reggie xxx
Grandad i miss your special smile, the way used to act like nothing was wrong i felt your pain then and dread you feeling my pain now love you loads demi xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
miss you daddy
nicola april mason
28 January 2008
1year on and still we weep,
in our hearts you will always keep,
we love you lots but miss you more,
the pain still as bad as it was before,
we know your soul is still among us,
your smile, your whistle, even your frown upon us,
and i know one day we'll meet again,
dear daddy rest in peace til then.
love from nicola, alex and kids x x x x x x